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Life is tough, but He promised no less! Life can feel so suffocating sometimes. My children, boys ages 6 and 3, are both very strong personalities, and tho sweet, tend toward monsterousness (in the Sesame Street sense). I love my mother in law, but sometimes she can be very overpowering, as well. She is a good lady, and means well to all she touches, but she and John are constantly at odds. And about silly things, too! I ask for time to myself, to read my Bible, to read other things as well, to pray (without interruption). I know that being a mommy pretty much promises me that my time will be monopolized by my children, but I want to show them a prayerful, godly example, that they can take with them when they grow up and leave. I want them to see me putting God first in my life, and that I am a better mother and wife for it. That I can take time to help other people and still be there for them, as well. It's a tall order, I know. I could never manage that on my own. But then, nothing I do is on my own anymore, is it? And that sense of suffocation I mentioned? It's gone. Being a former Pagan, or rather an Exwitch, I'm constantly struggling with this. I'm used to doing all this for myself. I'm used to my god/dess being a third party, not involved type. I was never out for power, so I never got that close encounter that at the time I craved. Now I praise Him for sparing me that, and I hope that I can live up to His plan for me. And I can, with His help. Pray for me, and talk to me if you want. I'm joining the Lighted Path, a Christian directory here in Diaryland. If you're interested, check it out!:D Love in Christ, Joy
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